getting here

This is
what it feels like
when you want something
so bad

but it just
doesn't
happen

you wish
you pray

you will
you want

and it just
doesn't happen

you try
to speak
but it's
not the same

in your heart
you know

one day
but just
not today

the waiting
the silence
the isolation

the sadness
in your
soul

the growth
the experience
the wisdom

the pain
in your
heart

you release.

Getting pregnant

felt impossible

but 

here I am

celebrating

a year

of their

life. 

Absolutely 

unbelieveable

and 

eternally

grateful!