Saturday, November 2, 2013

Keep Smiling

So much can change
in an instant
just when you think
you can scoop
all of life's
precious moments
in the palm of your hand
and hold them tightly
suddenly perspectives shift
and everything falls
straight to the floor
and when there is
nothing left to do
but pick up the pieces
you realize
your holding old memories
to a new puzzle

our Nya Sophia
my 6 year old
innocent niece
was diagnosed with AML
acute myeloid leukemia
cancer of the bone marrow
just 2 weeks ago
and life has since been
will forever be

my sister, Lindsay
and her family
need all the love
support and prayers
we can manage
to send their way
follow their journey at
Roswell's Carepages
by signing in
and searching the blog

it's a lot to process
for everyone
emotions are still
very raw... yet
I have taken
what my sister said
from the very beginning
to heart and soul
our mantra is
Keep Smiling

so please
in this new month
of gratitude
and family
hold your loved ones
close and tight
wrap your arms around
everything in life
and Keep Smiling

we did manage
to complete
the October checklist
of pumpkins
of carving
of costumes
of candy
all with the resistance
of struggle
of heartache
of chaos
of independence

in our home
three is challenging me

times two

but I've learned
with all things
every stage
brings new boundaries

brings new beauty

we are finding
our way

figuring out
what shapes
create a scary

and what shapes
create smiling


and speaking of
shapes and smiles
the end of the month
brought about
the end of a 6 month
Eye exam hiatus
Easton went back
for yet another
vision test and ireport

after an almost 2 hour
waiting room adventure
we marched right into
the exam chair patched
and ready to read
with a little snack bribery
enforcement and encouragement
Easton's Eye tested
the best yet... 20/30

it shocked the PO
just so that he even
questioned if he was peeking
peaking, through a patch?!
so onward we go
consistent relentless
continue to patch 8 hours
daily... it's working
Keep Smiling

we also scheduled an EUA
exam under anesthesia
as if we don't have enough
reasons to visit a hospital
the Tuesday
before Thanksgiving
please pray
glaucoma stay away

oh yeah and
new lens prescriptions
to follow the exam
this is all exactly
what I expected
and for that
I am grateful

these two though
are you looking at
these photos?!!
here he is
helping her down the stairs
nice and easy
pretty princess
make way for
polite pirate

they LOVED
trick or treating
door to door
ding dong
delighted and dancing

check out this
pirate's booty

hey kids, sit below
your pumpkin
no, NOT under it
goofs gotta love em

gotta grab em
and take what
I can get

photo ops of
twins with twins
will never get old

Keep Smiling!!!

Sunday, October 13, 2013

the third year

Come Party in Our Garden

Where you will see

Bulldozers, Backhoes, Butterflies and Bees

Easton and Azalea are turning 3!

It was a beautiful day... Saturday, September 28, 2013

We celebrated as a family

and with family

that special day
three years ago
to the day


I remember it
like it was
just yesterday
and yet it feels
so very far away

He was born first
Baby A at 9:20 pm
head first
pulled from my abdomin
he let out one
single loud cry
they dipped him over 
the large blue curtain
I saw him
will never forget
the blood stained 
my baby boy
then immediately
as fast as I saw him
he was taken away
his breath stopped
my heart my mind my body

She was born second
Baby B, our mystery
at 9:22 pm
anxiously awaiting her arrival
worried wondering
she wanted to come
into this world sideways
Dr. said one leg and one arm
poked through the opening
ended up jumping
with both feet first
assured she was delivered
heard her sweet voice
singing for all to hear
don't fear Momma
we are here
I never got to see her
until it was over

Easton practically died
after birth
his initial Apgar score was 0
they had to ventilate him
stabilize him
and then Daddy went with him
as they rolled him
past the proud Grandparents
waiting near by
then up to the NICU
for more needles, wires and monitors
6 weeks early
was too premature
for his little lungs

Azalea, my sturdy flower
she was why we delivered
so early
no longer thriving in utero
she was wrapped tightly
in a white hospital blanket
and placed in my arms
in the recovery room
for a few moments
that felt like a lifetime
tiny, teeny tiny itty bitty baby
her sweet small round face
looked like an angel
snug in my arms
no family no cameras
just me, her and a nurse
she was on her way to the NICU
where eventually she too
would be ventilated, poked and wired
but this moment
this was mine and hers
our time to shine
my only "motherly moment"
on their actual

For a long time
these and other memories
of our challenging beginning
made me mad
made me sad
but now they fuel me
make me feel
knowing seeing
how far we have come
I will take sticky
cheese puff fingers and face
any day 
especially on his

and that face
those eyes
3 years ago
I had no idea
his future
would look like this
on a whole
nother level

one day
but not
on this day

this day
the third
of many to come

still feels new
yet somehow
feels old








yet again...

Happy Happy Happy
Birthday to my
Dear Easton


Happy Happy Happy
Birthday to my
Sweet Azalea

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