On Her Birthday

When raising twins

rare are the moments

when you can enjoy

holding one child

without worrying 

about the other.

Even rarer is the moment

when you can enjoy

holding both children

at the same time.

Add to that

twin toddlers

and the moment

doesn't exist...

until today,

On Her Birthday.

This morning

we played.

So by mid-morning 

we were getting tired.

I scooped em up

and decided to rock

in Her chair

maybe read a book

maybe sing a few songs

hoping to pass some time

till they were rested

and ready for more.

Usually this might last

for 10 min?!

until today,

On Her Birthday.

They were happy 

just rocking

and singing.

We were all humming along

until I was suddenly 

the only one humming.

What is this?!

twin toddlers

sleeping on the same lap

in Her chair.

I drank in the moment

I closed my eyes

I felt their bodies

I listened to the rocking chair

I listened to their breathing

I smelled their hair

I looked around

I looked outside

I noticed the wind

I noticed the fall leaves

and then I remembered,

Her Birthday.

She waited for the news.

It took 3 years to deliver it.

On Easter Sunday,

she opened an egg.

It said, "Guess who's coming to 

Thanksgiving dinner?!"

Then she learned it was TWINS!

She was so happy.

But I'm sure she knew

and in the end I know

she knew.

She would meet them 

from a far.

Last year, today

she had been gone

3 months to the day.

But in their Baby Book

I still wrote 

Happy Birthday,

Grandma.

She held them

today.

I know it.

I felt it.

She was in Her chair

with us

rocking 

just like she used to do.

Holding those 

sweet little ones

looking out the window

enjoying the day,

On Her Birthday.

She may not have made it

to become a 

Great-Grandmother,

but to me 

she will always be a 

Great Grandma.

Happy Birthday Grandma!

Thank you for the gift today.

Thank you for helping me 

hold my sweet little ones

one more time

while they are still little.

I love you,

always.