Believe

And so I
return
back to the blog
the reason why
I started blogging
is the reason
is the inspiration
to write
to post
about
the Eye
always
about the Eye

Life is busy
but busy good
at the end
of each day
I want to write
I want to post
but the energy
is never there
 

as I sit tonight
kids still awake
just put to bed
kitchen still dirty
lunches still to pack
bags still to organize
shower still to take
art lessons still to review
but
I feel the urge
I feel the energy
I feel the priority
I need to get it out
I need the support



I believe in energy
I believe in power
I believe in prayer
and I wouldn't ask
if I didn't believe
but it's time
time to reach out
time to take in
time to think of him
 

I don't mean
to make a mountain
of a mole hill
but Easton
Easton is going in
for sugery
Strabismus surgery
to be exact
this was expected
at some point
and that point
is now
is this Thursday
 


We had yet another
Eye apt. today
and thankfully
all is good
glaucoma is there
glaucoma is managed
continue with the drops
gonna stay with current
contact prescription
revisit possible change
and addition of bi-focals
in six months
we studied the pics
he sat, he saw, he said
vision is
developing
this is all good

I continue to be
amazed
at his age appropriate
cooperation
I continue to be
so proud
 

One might be
wondering

what is Strabismus
basically when the eyes
look wacky and
don't line up
they are not
being used together
Easton's vision strength
is so different
in each eye
therefore his eye
muscle strength
is so different
in each eye

He does not
fuse the vision
from both eyes
together
he either uses
the weak eye
when patched
or the strong eye
when not patched
the surgery will "tweek"
his eye muscle
alignment
and the hope is
to give him
the use of both eyes
together
to gain
more peripheral vision
and possible fusion
of both eye images
he will not see
he will never see
three-dimensional
depth, space perception
but he will see
better
we hope
we pray



Please think of us
Please think of him
I know this is a
minor, routine
same day
procedure
but I have to
let him go
I have to trust
that this is right
and that everything
will be ok
I have to
believe

I have been trying
to stay strong
I will be strong
but I believe
in the strength
of others
and I believe
in the power of
the blog
haha that sounds
so silly
but really and truly
this journey
our journey
to see the distance
has become
much clearer
much stonger
much easier
with all of you
yes yes, my fellow
imoms
but everyone else too
you know who
you all are
thank you
I have felt
your thoughts
your energy
your prayers
now more than ever

 

The transition
from blogging mom
to working mom
has not been easy
and while I still
struggle to find
 

my place
 

my voice
 

my time
one thing hasn't
changed
my commitment
to see the distance
that I will do
that we will do
together



So enough
for tonight
much to still do
I will stay strong
and Easton
thanks you!