Easton's Eye - Part 4

Oh this next part
picking up the pieces
and moving
forward...
November
Remember

November 8, 2010
I think it's important
this day
the day my family
finally, 6 weeks later
was complete
home
under one roof.
Welcome home
Azalea Jayne!

Other good news
well at the time
we thought it was
good news...
Easton's Eye
had healed enough
that we could start
fitting him for a
contact lens.

Oh the feeling
the excitement
the anticipation
the fear
of moving
forward
into the unknown
on our path
of trying to give
Easton
the best
the possibility
of vision.

Little did I know
this lens
this tiny disk
that seemed like
the answer
was just
the beginning
to the next phase...

Que dramatic music
blinking red lights
loud sirens and
warning signs
unknowingly
we were about
to enter
Contact Hell.

November 9
Again, another
interesting day
my original due date.
Considering
ALL we had
been through
now is when
they
would have been
full term.
Ha, perspective.

November 15
This day is one
I have to laugh at
Azalea's first trip
to the Monday
Eye exams.

Looking back
I really don't
remember much
what I am recalling
is mostly from
little notes
I wrote in
the baby notebook
a keepsake
for sure!

I do remember
being so incredibly
exhausted
shamefully I will admit
driving to the
Monday Eye exams
half asleep
transporting precious cargo
buckled into a car
being driven
by a zombie mom.

Well on this day
the little girl
who slept through
the entire office visit
and who
hated to eat
got hungry
in the car.

Meanwhile Easton
who had been up
for the exam
was now sleeping
not wanting to
move him wake him
we decided to try
to feed her
in the car
kinda hard to do
when the milk
is on ice packs.

Daddy's brilliant idea
warm up
her less than 2 oz. bottle
with the hot air
blowing from
the car heater!!!
It worked.
She ate.
We laughed.
Life goes on.


November 16
Phone calls and faxes
contact ordered
contact in
Easton's first
contact fitting.

Oh and wouldn't you know
it just happened to be
my birthday
my 30th birthday
what a way to
celebrate!

Needless to say
this is when
I started to learn
a new language
contact language
fluting
skirting
sliding
nasal
temporal
what does this all mean
the contact
didn't fit
because if it did
those words
need not apply.

But we left
with it anyway
why
because it was
our turn
Daddy's turn actually
to practice
getting it
in
on
his Eye.

Thankfully
there are 2 of us
parents
they must come
in a pair
for a reason?!

My husband
wears contacts
he stepped up
he was not afraid
and for the next
couple months
he did it
he went for it
he managed
the contact
while sleeping
while feeding
in
on
out
he did it!

I watched
supported
encouraged
absorbed
learned.
I was still
afraid
terrified
of the contact
of the Eye.

November 22
The weekend
came and went
it was Monday...
again.

Nothing significant
has changed
with his Eye
it was healing
and only time
would tell
the rest.

However, now
we had a contact
an ill fitting contact
the Dr. got it on
agreed, it didn't fit
a different one
was already
on the way
BUT
it was clear
anything
was better
than nothing.

Easton was almost
2 months old now
the urgency
to send vision
any kind of vision
with that Eye
to his brain
was priority
so ill fitting
or not
he needs to try
to wear it
he needs to start
patching.

I remember
we left that day
with a contact
that was fluting
raised up off
sticking out of
his Eye
and
a patch
over the only eye
we assumed
he could see out of.

Oh how my heart
ached
physically hurt
to see
to experience
such a moment
my baby boy
forced
to endure
forced
to be challenged
from here
forward
this would be
his life.

As a parent
this was new
tough
very tough
where is the line
when do I step in
how do I
how will he
get through this.

I remember
we left the office
and drove
straight to the nearest
drug store
buying 
patches
saline solution
lens cleaner
and
more patches

The knot
in my stomach
was getting
bigger and bigger
this was real
so REAL
and 
it wasn't getting
any easier.