Sunday, February 17, 2013

Strong

It's Sunday afternoon
the kids have been down
for a half hour
asleep for 15 min.
I'm on the couch
under a blanket
surrounded by pillows
and a sleeping dog
who got a bath last night
so she actually
smells good
toys are scattered
accross every inch
of the floor
the kitchen is dirty
there is plenty of
laundry waiting in piles
and here I sit
writing about stuff
rather than actually
doing stuff...
I'm on vacation!


Yup, that's right
a week off
winter break
and I couldn't have
kicked it off
any better than
taking the kids
to the Strong Museum
of Play, yesterday


oh yeah
and the whole
sittng on the couch
writing thing
would imply
that I have a laptop
a new laptop
technically it's used
but NEW to me
gotta love it
I realize now
what I have been
missing
so that is kinda
encouraging
exciting at least
to me


but yeah, anyway
Daddy's been working
crazy overtime hours
and Mommy was looking
for something to do
so Grandma suggested
packing the kids up
and hitting the road
for an hour long
road trip to
destination FUN

I have to admit
the drive was pretty
reminisant
good ol Route 31
all the way to
Rha Cha Cha
that's WNY talk
for Rochester
everytime we drive it
my Mom always asks
do you remember
when we used to
live out this way
look see there's
our exit
and I always respond
yes, Mom I do


I was literally
probably my kids age
we only stayed
maybe a year
before moving back
to the very home
we left
our little stay though
left a big impact
on both of us

I don't remember much
but I do remember
our small apartment
it felt small
compared to our
big blue house
and I remember
a family gathering
climbing on top
of my now
dining room table
grasping the spout
putting my mouth on
a fresh pot of hot tea
and well...
you can only imagine
why I remember that


but truly I do
remember the drive
the long and whinding
counrty road
farms and picket fences
around every curve
the waiting
the wondering
if we were home... yet

and then I fast forward
in my mind
memories of me
not just watching
her
but becoming her
the independent woman
who traveled
Route 31
in my 20's
as a Graduate student
seeking the answers
to the troubles
of life


my Master's Degree
Art Therapy
such a blessing
for me
the travel
the people
the confidence
found strength

is it Strong Museum
Rha Cha Cha
or Route 31
all of them
balled in to one
full circle
of fun



we can do this
look and see
just come along
and play
even if just
for the day



yesterday
or rather every day
is certainly
not just about
reliving memories
but making new ones
along the way


oh their sweet
little faces
their spirits
my heart races


I love the discovery
of something new


the mastery
the confidence
of something
familiar


play is
the best way


to say
this is our day


find ways
to enjoy

look! a pirate ship
ahoy


jump in
don't hesitate
if you do
it might be
too late


learn from others
learn with others
always learning
from play
their way


the sights
the sounds
the interaction


the tried


and true


mixed with technology
and it's new


will they
remember this
not so sure
if they do

but I know
experience
effects you


the feeling
that starts
sparks within
discovery
play
every way
each day


Strong Museum
has me feeling
my own strength
of how I came to be
with my family
looking forward
to this time
to play
with them
and me.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

love.

oh to blog
or not to blog
that is the question
of course the answer 
is always
I want to blog
but life
that list of priorities
seems to get in the way
and maybe 
just maybe 
a small percent 
is me avoiding
how to move on
after my last post
 

I have to admitt
it felt good
to just let it out
but then the feelings
all things EYE
lingered
left my heart
heavy
the worry
the fear
the unknown
surfaced
stayed
until I was able
to really box it
back up
and put it away
for another day
when this journey
rattles my soul, again
and out it will pop
like a jack-in-the-box
do I really have to
state that I hate
that toy


is it crazy
of me to say
that my mom/teacher self
actually went all the way
to think that on
day one
week one
of kindergarten
I want to bring in
a box of patches
for the whole class
to educate
to experience
to express empathy
towards Easton's Eye


I honestly jumped
that far ahead
and maybe a little
over the edge
but its that fear
that I will do anything
protective
proactive
instinctive
feeling of fear
that keeps me up
and holds me down
all at the same time


but then I saw
him
and I saw
her
fearless
free
and it inspired
me


to just keep going
to just keep loving
to allow them
to continue
to make their own path
to find their own way
and when they get lost
and when they get hurt
I will be there
my love will be here
I will be their
safe place
to fall
to feel


I don't need to have
all the answers
I don't need to know
what the future holds
all I do know is
my love is fierce
my love is a force
and my love
is really all
I have 
all that they
really need

so enough of
all that
let's get to
the good stuff
the sweet stuff
like cupcakes


on a random Saturday


the weekend before


Valentine's Day


I mean really
why not
try all three


tasted good... see!


this would be
them playing house
outside


after 18 inches of snow
in a 24 hour period


thank you
snow storm Nemo


she had fun


he had fun


they had fun
snow is simply
fun
especially when you decide
to face plant and swim
on your stomach in it


lots of new
indoor activity
as well
jumping over
jumping on
anything


jumping together


running


racing


reading






and lastly
a lil holiday
crafting
 

obviously EYE love
this Valentine idea


they both
enjoyed "signing"
their Valentines
with a pen


Happy Valentines Day
after all is said
and done
hope you are left
feeling nothing but
love.
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