Hol EYE days!

I just started
to blog
and then I stopped
got up and went
to crack open
an ice cold beer
took a sip
set it down
and started over



insert second sip here
what am I looking for
honesty
reality
truth



buckle your seat belts
we are going for
a wild ride
ha, not exactly
really in the big picture
things are status quo
but if I am being honest
 

I drove home today
from where else
another Eye Dr. apt.
not in full blown hysterics
but with a pit
a nasty well known knot
in my stomach
and tears
brimming
swelling
burning
on the edges of
my eyes
and in my heart



wondering why
yes, exactly
wondering why
happy tears
sad tears
grateful tears
mad tears
relieved tears
fearful tears
or how about
all of the above

She just stole it and ran...

let's start with
something easy
Azalea

She is anything and everything but easy!

a year ago
the PO checked her eyes
normal for premies
like her
she showed some
minor concerns
so Doc wanted her back
in a year... today
she was a pro
so proud to be brave
just like her brother
cooperative
calm
both eyes healthy
both eyes normal
girlfriend tested
20/30 in both eyes
relief
of course I played
the what if game
so so glad
we just dodged
that bullet
huge relief




beer gone
just went and
got another
think what you want
keepin it real

My bare faced boy.

ok so the story
you are probably
waiting for
Easton and the Eye
ummm where do I
begin
just begin
with good news
for the first time
with his good eye
glasses on
Easton tested 20/30
yes, I just said that
he will read
he will drive
his good eye works
more relief

My totally handsome boy.

so the vision
in his bad eye
is stable
is developing
due to lack of
patience
cooperation
he only tested
20/150
in the past he has been
20/80
PO is not concerned
he tolerates patching
so continue patching
no binocular vision
probably won't ever
use two eyes
simultaneously

prescriptions stay
the same
not bad
not new
fair enough

My pre-patch boy.

so glaucoma
oh glaucoma
to have
or not to have
that would be
the question

here is where
I just took another
sip of beer

let's just drop
the bomb already
our beloved PO
is leaving the practice

stare at the screen
sip more beer

to put it mildly
her perspective
is proactive
when dealing with
Easton's glaucoma
stay on top of it
beat it down with drops
keep glaucoma away
have I mentioned
I really like her
or that I am really
going to miss her
if I haven't
I will by the end
of this post

our new default PO
the glaucoma specialist PO
is more reactive
in other words
we are now following
his plan of
Easton does not
show signs of
nerve damage
therefore Easton
does not have glaucoma
we will treat it
when we see it
therefore
Easton is decreasing
his drop treatment
to ultimately go off drops
until there is damage

let me be clear
I respect his opinion
I will comply with his
recommendations
he is qualified
he is trusted
but
he is not
our beloved PO

so today when
Easton's pressure
was elevated
and he showed signs
of slight nerve damage
we did nothing
we will see
the specialist next week

we will only get to see
our beloved PO
one more time
in the spring
before she relocates
to Florida
and I will say
I would have drove
across 3 states
to stay with her
if I could have
but Florida
is a bit too far  :(

she just cares
beyond her expertise
and knowledge
and professionalism
she just cares

we could be
her first
her tenth
her one hundredth case
in a day
or ever
and she makes us feel
like her only

There is my happy baby boy!

in a profession
about eyes
her eyes
say it all
warmth
kindness
compassion

with a diagnosis
that is unpredictable
and realistically
a long hard tough journey
especially on the parents
she gives us hope



when she tells me
it will be ok
I believe her
and that is all
I need to hear
that is all
I have to say...
 

wondering why
tears
wondering why
 

Cheers
second beer is gone
Happy Hol EYE days!

"Oh come on... silly Buddy!" says Easton.  He's hanging from the ceiling fan.